I made a promise to myself at some point: I will try to give slightly more of a fuck about my appearance when I return to work from maternity leave than I did before I left. Combine being huge and tired with not really caring that much to begin with and... yeah, I basically wore yoga pants to work for three months.
first step of this process was to clear out my closet of items that I
don’t wear, that don’t fit, that I haven’t worn in years, or that are in
bad shape. That last one is the hardest for me. I am terrible about
getting rid of clothing that has seen better days. Right now, I’m
wearing my old Ohio U Bobcats long-sleeved t-shirt which has about 18
holes in it. I mean, I’m not headed to the office, but it’s probably beyond
worth sleeping in.
is the pile of “get rid of,” which is now sitting in a bag in our
basement waiting for me to sort through it again to determine if items
should be tossed, Goodwill-ed or sold.
packed up my spring/summer clothes, maternity clothes (after some debate, I decided against continuing to wear the elastic waistband pants), and some
clothing that doesn’t quite fit, but I love too much to get rid of (I
like to hold onto hope).
next part of the plan is to make sure I have some clothing that fits.
Good news/bad news, I guess: Because my weight tends to coughflutuatecough, I have a vast array of
sizes to choose from and am actually able to wear some of my old non-maternity clothes even if I’m not quite at a
weight where I’m totally comfortable.
my closet, I hung the clothes that I can use. I took a few items to the
tailor for minor alterations, which should help extend their lifespan. And next week, I’m going shopping. I’ve abandoned the “I’ll
shop when I’m at X size” attitude. I’m determined to feel good about
what I’m wearing regardless of what the tag says. I’m going to get a few
pairs of pants, some easy-access nursing tops (as I will be pumping at
work), a cardigan or two, and maybe a new pair of brown boots (if I can justify the splurge).
long will my attempt to give a fuck last? I have no idea, but it seems
like returning from maternity leave is a good time to make an attempt.